How Do i Know?

Last two years or so have been a terror. I don't how much of me has been lost in the process, besides that,so many weeds have grown, that i have almost forgotten myself and my worth. It is almost impossible to know now. Comparisons have become inevitable and have gone out of hand.  Temporary distractions make it up sometimes but then at the end of day there's something that is always wrong. I am not philosophical, i can't practice that mind art or that 'art of living', but yes there are weeds and there are too many.

As i wade through this agnozing wait, i wonder, was all of it ever worth it or if i was ever worth it.